WHAT MAKES YOU TICK?

WHAT MAKES YOU TICK????

At a point in time, around a week or two weeks ago, I randomly asked, "What makes you tick?"

So of course the question was sent out to a couple of decent numbers, and the answers were mind blowing to say the least. I expected less but instead i got much to ramble on and on about.

It's an odd question if you ask me. What exactly was my intent huh. As random as the question is, is exactly as random as the thought. The question has so many perspectives. Like are you asking me for an upfront answer?

Are you asking me to answer what moves me to so much negative energy or aura? 

(😹😹), for my tiny anime audience.

Or is it that you're asking me what makes me smile with such a warm embrace.

I don't know! Just tell me what you thought of as you heard the question.

So the answers came in. One of them was quite familiar. I know maybe quite most of you relate. Huge assumption there but i guess we go with what we get. 

FOOD!

Food makes me tick. Just the sweet ecstasy when that piece of good chicken lands on your tongue. That intense moment. That, "Damn, eating out today was quite the pay off" type of vibe. That moment your teeth grind over and over again as you devour the sweet sensation on your tongue. Licking your lips to make sure you don't miss any taste. Sparing no room for waste. Chewing that bone and leaving it raw. Sucking on your thumb because it got most of the action. Of course assuming you wash well😏. 

And I was bought. Because food does make me tick in various ways. Most especially after herb, puffs and munchies. But that's nuff about me. Let's head over to another answer.

LOUD CHEWERS! TOUCHEY FEELY UNPROVOKED HUMANS!!! 

Uuuggghhhh! Just the sound of it makes it so blegh! I mean why don't you keep the noise to your mouth. We are also enjoying ourselves. Why so boasty? That scrunchy noise in a silent peaceful environment. I don't know about you, but is a no for me. Well, relate much. Cause I did. I mean, some things make your mind and stomach crawl in different directions. Then those human beings who just cannot seem to keep their hands to themselves. I mean there is a reason consent exists. There is a reason hands are an extension of your body. Because that's where they should remain unless indicated otherwise. Ish, too much negative energy right, let's go to the next beauty.

MUSIC!!!!

My people, my people. Music makes people tick. Well I'll be damned if I say I don't belong to people. Music is a gift given to us by our ears. Music is the melody nature provides. The moment good vibrations are a wonderful bass track land on your ears. The moment those carefully scripted words leave our favorite artists' mouths. Damn. The way goosebumps linger on our skin when we hear that soul piercing note just carefully delivered. And the electronic gift that is ear phones. The minute that good high is flowing in your body and just the right songs are booming in your ears. That momentary close of your eyes. I mean if you don't do music, I don't know. Music is like a need, well, for me. Music most definitely makes me tick just as much as it does you.

SMELLY PEOPLE!!!!

Foooo!!! Take a shower son! Sis it doesn't feel too good. Perfumes and cologne really do exist. Why you coming to me when I'm vibing good in the morning with some wack ass stench from last week. I mean brother, you might shower but are your clothes clean too??? Why are you doing this to our innocent noses. I mean the lecturer can mumble but all I hear is, "Stenchy, dirty socks, wet shoes, damp clothing and sweat behind you". It's definitely too much. This is a one on one special. Buy soap! Sabuni, dawa la roho. At least make life peaceful not deadly. Talking about it is already making my skin crawl so moving on...

Now shall we head over to me. What makes your dear author tick?

PURPLE!!! 

The simple color purple. Purple is a color close to my heart. Not for any particular reason. But for so many reasons. The image theme for this post for instance. The title. An image I came across when I was browsing my dear beauty color. Why does purple make me tick? I mean. Maybe its because of how immediately peaceful I become after staring at it for too long. It's like God's personal gift for my eyes. When I see purple, ...forget the philosophy. I just fuck heavy with purple. I mean, why the hell not. 

It's the simple things in life that makes us happy. It is also the simple things in life that make us lash out. This is simply living. I mean we need all our emotions to pass off as a human being. At least one that feels. So whatever it is that rubs you off the right or the wrong way. It's what makes you you. 

I'm not so sure I included all the answers I got here. But I had my laugh and a fair share of good chats with those who came to me. And for this I say thank you. 

Jah bless.

AS I LAY,...

I wanted to write. Needed to write. Maybe it's partly because, I feel like i present my words in a clearer way. In a maybe captivating way. Because when i'm not being insecure, I'm prolly having the time of my life. Believing in myself. But I do believe that at times, you need to give it a break. And it's a well deserved one. For once, I want to stop thinking and just do.  And that means making the decisions I was once afraid to make. Not afraid of the consequences. Because sometimes, these same consequences make me into who I am.

So, to the few fans I garnered during my writing period. Need I say, my first writing period? Well I guess you don't have to worry. I'm just taking a very much needed hiatus. In my life, I've realized that the best decisions I made, happen when I'm away from everyone else. In my own world. And everything comes in phases, might be presumptuous to say that you are all aware of this. But, I am learning to make my world work in this world and my oh my I'm excited for what's in my future.

They say even the greatest know when they need to give it a rest, or they need to hold the strangely strong bull by it's horns and take initiative. Make it your slave. Be it's master. Be the director of your own life. With God of course, otherwise it's all merely worthless. But side note to the non-believers, yes it can happen to you too. I mean in the end we are all human. And if someone once achieved it we all damn can.

Who knows, maybe my next blog, will be about someone writing about me. Who knows, maybe the next time, I'll try to improve the reading culture. Maybe making a publishing company , who knows?  Success isn't limited. One thing I know for sure, again even though it's overrated, friendships are important. If you have one worth holding on to, don't fuck it up son. Sis take control of the situation and embrace loyalty.

True happiness, as I believe, is when you are generous with your smiles. Kind words. Tiny actions. Just be there for people, and the feeling of joy will overwhelm you. Well again, it's always a personal choice. But if you ever want to, get the temptation to, feel the urge to try, living like that... give it a try. Besides, it really is not life threatening.

Pain always seems bad, but not always. Pain heals too. Because then if you get unlucky once again to face it, it doesn't hurt as much as before. And this means, you don't and won't think about giving up. Besides once you climb that ladder, there's only one way up. And since you've seen the bottom, you climb clearly steered careful not to go back to that horrific place.

Otherwise, my dear readers, please take a moment and smile. Don't go ignoring me now, are you smiling? You sure? Najua one of you is prolly still thinking this is really stupid. But it isn't. You are smiling right now, right? Now was that so hard? I know you can't be lying to me...Umesmile?

I know...it felt good. And if you were happy even before choosing to read this paragraph, i'm sure it kinda felt refreshing. Yes, this is me sharing my smile with you. Because, I am so grateful for you. If it wasn't for you then my blog would've been useless.

Well again, this is not goodbye. This is me going to the abyss to overthrow it and create a way out. Because if lil miss Blvck can stop feeling like a worthless person, then you can also step out of depression. And i am going to be there walking with you. And let's make our lives into movies. I know I'm ready for the final stage to heading into my happy ending.

Confused...of course I can write positive. Besides it's not always raining, rainbows are pretty too. And they come between the sun and the rain. That feeling of assurance. You have it all under control. All you can do for me now, is spend the rest of your day happy. Be happy...